I cannot believe this day...
Not only is it a year ago today that I lost my Grammy, but now Tom called and said he is hiring a lawyer for our divorce. SERIOUSLY?! He KNOWS what today is and it is JUST LIKE him to do this. He's showing NO emotion about it except for anger. I told him, "If you want this to be an amicable divorce, then you can STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE TO ME!" Everything just became real. I guess I've been in denial. How could someone who loved you for so long just give up?? My heart is shattered, my emotions are out of control...someone just PLEASE shoot me. Will I ever find love again? Will I ever fulfill my dream of being a mother? I am doubting EVERYTHING.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
This is a really hard challenge because music is my life...for yesterday's "favorite song", I could have posted AT LEAST 20. But, I'm deciding to do this challenge according to what I like and don't like RIGHT NOW. So, as of right now, I really can't stand this song:
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Today has not been a good day for me so far...and it's only 12:30pm. I do not want to go into detail, as it is pretty personal, but I'm sure I'll tell you if you ask. Now I'm just trying to rest and watch the Bears/Seahawks game...not that I really care about either team. I am happy that the Packers won last night though.
Friday, January 14, 2011
So, I submitted a very good resume and application to Fidelity yesterday afternoon. My friend Rachel said I had a very good shot at getting the job. This morning, I woke up to an e-mail saying, "Although your background and experience are impressive, we will not be pursuing you." Rachel called me after I e-mailed her with the news and told me there's only one reason that she can think of that they would reject me so quickly. She didn't tell me what it was because it was in a voicemail, but I have a feeling that it's because I have a bad financial history. That really pisses me off if that's the case because that has NOTHING to do with how I would perform at this job. Yeah, I've made numerous mistakes with bank accounts and have had bank accounts written off and sent to collections, but I am better with money now and I REALLY wanted this job. I understand it's in the financial industry, but it has to do with investments and helping people with them. Why does my financial history have to have anything to do with my abilities to perform the job well?! I had hope and now I am back again to having none.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
So, my friend Rachel from my Hopeful Hearts group works at Fidelity. They have AMAZING health insurance and it's an extremely good company to work for. She asked me to e-mail her my resume, so I did. She said it looks great and she will be speaking to the hiring manager today about me!!! PLEASE pray that I get this job! I need it badly and need the health insurance more than I can tell you.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I've been looking for a job for a while now and it seems like there is NOTHING out there. It is beyond frustrating filling out applications, messing with my resume, calling possible employers, and getting NOTHING. However, my friend Rachel works for Fidelity (which has INCREDIBLY GOOD health insurance that I badly need) and told me she would get my resume to the top of the pile. I don't want to get my hopes up, but I really hope I can get a job there. It'll be a drive as they don't have an office near Denton, but hopefully it'll be worth it. In the meantime, if you know of any jobs out there, PLEASE let me know!!!